There is an old saying, “Under the turned-over nest, no single egg can survive.”
Ever since I finally decided to choose CS as my major, I often ask myself: Is it truly a good choice to join a field that is frivolous, turbulent, and impossible to tell the future. Maybe I should have learned medicine, or law, or maybe just followed my parents and went EE. Maybe in that case I won’t need to worry about only being valuable when you are young, endlessly working overtime, or suddenly getting laid off. But of course, every field has its shady downsides, and I just don’t know yet.
The pandemic gave this industry too many “pseudo demands” and “fake prosperity,” and the only thing such industry liked the most is “if I get money now, I will just spend it all now”. So it came with one of the easiest years for finding jobs - last year - when many companies falsely estimated their growth and hired more than they needed. It also gave me unrealistic confidence that I could easily find a job next year.
Then, you all know what happens afterward. I did think that one day, the bubble would burst, and the CS industry would turn into a recession, but I have never felt that it will be “today.” Tech companies are just as short-sighted as I used to be: hire more if earning money, and lay off now if having loss. Sadly, as the bubble burst, they lost too much.
The world might experience another financial crisis. It might need one. There is no construction without destruction.
My parents recently often comfort me: It is not your fault for finding no internship. It is the world’s fault. All I could do was just smiling helplessly, exclaiming about “GGWP,” about “sometimes ever, sometimes never.”
Seems like now I don’t know what to do: when anxiety, disappointment, and upset stack over and over, people might turn out to feel numb. Months ago, I still believed that the best lesson I learned this year would be to be far-sighted, but now living in a world that is becoming more delusive, it seems like all I can do is to proceed without a plan: my plan can’t catch up with this changing world.
All of these are just my random thoughts, inspired by recent news about tech companies’ lay off. Life still continues, and, to be honest, there is no way back.
Am I pissed off? Sort of. But saying it out is better than letting them stay in my head and become worse.
Let’s go, guys. Struggled through this tough year, and hope the future will be better.